Monday, 28 October 2019

Blocks and tears

Before you become someone better you must have to let go of what no longer serves you.
All of the internal blockages you have inside will try to stop you and sabotage you from reaching your internal power.
They are there not for you to fail, but for you to dig deep inside and overcome the difficulties otherwise you won't evolve and become stagnant.

It is a shitty process, it is not pleasant, it is not a walk in the park, it is the death of parts of you that you have to honor.
I am going through all of this, I felt despair, loneliness, anger, pain...
I've been battling for too long to give up now. Guess what: I will never give up. I will go deep. I will fight and face all situations and inner demons I have and I will be victorious.
You can never build a new and beautiful house on top of an old house. You have to destroy it, bringing back memories,  bring back all the crap you have inside that house, clean it, bring it to the ground and then you can build a new one.

Tears are the small magical bits of water that clean all of that away. By releasing those blocks, stuck emotions, traumatic experiences and forgive and accept who you are, what you have been through as well as people and situations you are bringing the own power where it belongs: back to the source... back to you

Saturday, 12 October 2019

Getting back up again...

Rocky films are cheesy. Fact
But Rocky films have a strange way to show you the power of perseverance.
Rocky was an underdog and the odds were always against him, he gets hit time after time but what makes him a champion in life is that he gets back up after being hit harder and harder every single time.
That's life for you.
Life will hit you in many different ways, via loss of health, via loss of family and friends, loss of jobs, loss of partners and the list goes on.
What really tests your will and your soul is not the pain, but the endurance of the pain that, if prolonged is called suffering.
Remove the word suffering from your vocabulary.
Pain is what it is, a deep sense of discomfort in your body, mind, and soul but the continuation of it is called suffering and that is just masochism. That is not loving yourself because you get addicted to that feeling and then you become a victim.

We all have been victims at any time of our life and Caroline Myss, a spiritual author that I have great respect for, says that we all have the Victim archetype in our psyche.
The challenge is not to let it take over, it is to understand it, and understand our fragilities and getting back up for another round.
I will not stand down, I will get back up every single time I get rattled!

Sunday, 6 October 2019


I am sometimes surprised how the Universe works...
One's forgiveness can be one of the most difficult and simple things in the world.
As much as you have your mind to come with reasons to forgive, true forgiveness occurs in the heart and it's unexpected and releasing.
When you least expect the feeling of being trapped fades away, the shackles fall into the ground and the burden you carry evaporates.
You have the feeling of being light and peaceful and no matter how you felt before you can now fly.
This feeling might be temporary or if you're lucky it can last for a long time but the memory of freedom and peace will last forever.
You have to find your own way of self forgiveness as no one will teach you better than you heart guided by the pantomine of the Universe.

Monday, 30 September 2019

The journey of acceptance

It is funny how life works...
I've been going through quite some changes in my life that were consciously taken from my own soul. Nobody told me what to go I chose the path that was better for me.
Is it the right path, yes it is. Is it the easier path, no it isn't.
I am on a journey of self-discovery of letting go of the things that no longer serve.

This is the path of self-discovery for myself so I can love myself and love others, I need to find the belief in myself that I lost along the way because life showed it to me and wants me to grow as a person...
This is time for inner-work, not a time for distractions or going back to old patterns.

I have to stop caring about what the world thinks, I have to stop caring that I should follow a certain path I just have to walk my own path with conscious decisions.
It might be easier for some but it's their journey and they will have other challenges, that might be easier or harder.

For me, it is not easy to breakdown the barriers built by my mind and by my obsolete beliefs but that is my journey and most importantly I need to accept it.
Good advice from people I love and care and really mean it.

Friday, 26 July 2019

The process

Well, I've been on a self discover journey lately and in any journey things don't turn out as planned.
Self discovery is a path that brings out your soul's purpose but it also digs out the things you don't want to see, some people call it demons and everybody has their own personal different ones.
You can live your life blindfolded and oblivious to your true calling or your path of happiness simply by hiding...

There is a process in this journey:
- Uncomfortableness: you become aware something is wrong and you can't really tell what it is so you feel confused.
- Awareness: you dig in deep and become aware of what is bothering you
- Pain: now that you are aware you start to face your demons and pain emerges and it becomes conscious
- Healing: now that you become aware and faced your demons, you consciously need your wounds to heal. That takes time, patience and lots of self-care.
- Action: now is the time to make the changes needed in your life. Discipline, patience and awareness play a big part.

Wednesday, 17 July 2019

Long, lone path

My life feels like a long, lone path.
I have loved ones that try and hold my hand on the way up the mountain but ultimately is up to me.
I try and struggle with my mind and boots going up that rocky mountain and it feels hard.

I am starting to embrace the pain that i call a friend now. It is a teacher, the most misunderstood one. The more you fear it, the more it will hurt you. The more you embrace it, the easier it is.
There is no easy way out, there are no shortcuts, there is only hope that often seems to be fading every time I close my eyes.
Hope is not palpable, it comes from the heart and often the mind tries to ignore it and throws scenarios at you just to make you confused.

All I can do is keep walking forward as much as the inner suffering tries to drag me back. Fighting, loving, accepting and embracing what's inside of you is one of the most difficult things you'll ever have but it's up to you.

It's a long, lone path...

Friday, 12 July 2019

My inner world for today

Where is my inner world?
What does it say?
Do we listen to our voice inside?

Everyone has their own life, their own thoughts, their own desires, and their individual soul...
So far I am not telling you anything new.
Our own life, for the majority of us, occurs in the outside world as we have bills to pay, loved ones to care, annoying bosses to deal, the government screwing us up the arse, stupid people to confront, a place to stay etc...

There is no other possibility but to face what life has put in front of us, the best we can.
Our mind is very important and it has the role of asking us questions but do not get tricked because it has the power of confusing you more creating endless scenarios that probably won't come to fruition.

People with overactive minds can often have anxiety and depression because mental activity is so strong that it overloads the system.
I had anxiety and depression, and I don't know if I still do.
Many people think that this mental health condition is a sign of laziness or weakness when it is not.
You constantly remember and relive the past and you constantly worry and try to fully control a future of which you have no major control.
I am not saying that you can't build your future,  that you can't visualize your future, what I am saying is that just because you run over different types of futures in your head constantly it will become real.

You can create your future, but and my old friend and master Antonio would say... it is a co-creation.
You create it in your mind's eye, visualize it and part of i is done.
You work towards your goal and another part of it is done.
Now let the Universe do its job and allow you or not to create your future...

You ask me why are things that you want a lot, that you worked really hard to get and they don't happen. Either is a business, a relationship, more money, change or maintenance in your life...
They might not happen  because of many reasons:

  • What you want  is not good for you
  • It is not the right time
  • You have more lessons to learn before you can reach it
  • It's not part of the bigger plan
  • It is not aligned with your purpose on this earth.
This is where your inner world comes into play...

What is your inner world?
It is simply your soul's calling.
Some of you might believe in a soul and some might not. Not my problem.
The fact that a body has a soul is what makes it alive otherwise it is just a complex system of cells...
The inner voice you hear and that is full of love comes from your soul.
There is one voice that you hear that criticizes you and puts you down and that is not your soul, that is something ingrained in your mind that is there to make you fail.
Your inner world is where true change starts and makes the outside world happen.

Do you have doubts?
I have been on a path for many years to find myself and I had my doubts because life didn't go the way I planned and I thought it was bullshit.
Life made me see, the hard way that you first have to have an intention,  feel what you want inside and then you might have your bright future.
I am going even deeper, many spiritual gurus believe that this mix will allow you to achieve the future you want but they are forgetting a key area. What are the lessons you need to learn first? What Karma do you have?
First of all, I don't believe that just because you have Karma you can't achieve something, that needs to be worked on and you can overcome it. That is one of the main reasons you are here to overcome your past and your limitations.
Once you have overcome those lessons, that is where intent and visualization play a great part and you set the wheels in motion for the Universe to do its part.

My inner world for today is set on overcoming my mind and heal.